Where’s the UNDO Button for my Life?

Do you ever have one of the days where you wish you could simply hit the “UNDO” Button? I do!

Don’t get me wrong, I know that the things I have gone through have made me who I am and helped me grow, but sometimes I just wish i could UNDO. UNDO

Say something stupid? UNDO

Emotionally eat? UNDO

Let people walk all over me? UNDO

Loose my temper? UNDO

I truly wish I could UNDO those moments when I gave into something I really didn’t want to do to make someone else happy, to avoid getting hurt, or beaten. I programmed myself to shut up and just do what everyone else wanted me to do. Unfortunately, I also programed those around me that I don’t have an option and that I would just do whatever I was told.

Time doesn’t always heal wounds, it sometimes festers and then there is an explosion. As time went on I could not continue to go along with the crowd. When I would stand up for myself I was the unreasonable one. It would become a fight. One where there is no winner, there is no loser, just people who experience life differently. There is no way of going back, there is no UNDO.

As I look back at those moments I often wonder what it would have been like if I would have said, “That doesn’t work for me.” or simply said, “No”. What would my life and my relationships be like if I could have quickly hit the UNDO button when I realized I was heading down a path I didn’t want to go down.

Just like the moment that just happened. I got angry because plans fell through. UNDO

 

Everyone has his or her own journey. We each have our own triggers and interpretations of life. My intent is to add in the healing process not cause anxiety or pain. Our experience may be similar but they are each unique. Even though many people could have been at the same event each person experiences and remembers those events through our own eyes and will recall the event differently. My blogs will be from my perspective of my life. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother and friend. I am not a Doctor, Counselor or Therapist. I believe it is important to work with Doctors, Counselors and Therapist along with Essential Oils, Energy Healing and spirituality to find health, healing and balance.

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