September is Suicide Awareness Month which always causes me to reflect on my own journey. I want to acknowledge that as I write this it is not from my journals, but my memory, so my timelines may be skewed. My first suicidal thoughts I remember having where in High School, but then I got involved … More Suicide Awareness
Prologue: I believe people are placed in our path to bless our lives and the lives of others. Earlier this month I meet two incredible women that invited me to eat lunch with them at a seminar. It was a delight to share of their spirits as we shared out stories. Alison, graciously offered to … More Feel it as well
Poetry is written and owned by Warrior. For permission to use email firstname.lastname@example.org for permission to use) Trigger Warning: Triggers are different for everyone. You never know when they are going to show up. I am sharing in hopes of helping others. If you need immediate assistance call National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255. For a … More To the Broken
Today JJ sent me a text that stated “You Are Loved”. Then he proceeded to ask me if I knew I was loved without having to do anything. He then asked each of our children the same thing. We had powerful conversation as a family about love. About understanding love and that true love is … More YOU ARE LOVED!
On my path of healing and growth I have gotten myself some amazing mentor to support me along the way. What I have discovered is that I am not a victim. Each day I get to choose to live from my past experiences or choose to create something new. Think of it this way, when … More I Am Not a Victim I Am in the Driver Seat
Trigger Warning: Triggers are different for everyone. You never know when they are going to show up. I pushed my one limits on this one. Utah has a 23% higher Domestic Murder rate than the United States Average. Which leads me to believe that there is also a higher Domestic Violence rate as well. … More Against Better Judgement
Trigger Warning: This post is all about triggers. Triggers are different for everyone. You never know when they are going to show up. I am sharing in hopes of helping others. Over the last 6 months there have been a lot of domestic violence murders in the news. Each one sent me spiraling a little … More Survivors Guilt
As I grow I find myself repeating the circle of trial, depression, humbling myself, gratitude, and growth. This time, I found myself struggling to see my blessings. Then I came across a guided mediation that helped me improve my attitude of gratitude. As I listen to it, I am reminded of how blessed I truly … More Attitude of Gratitude
Last weekend I attended an amazing seminar titled, Queen of the Kingdom. It was just what I needed to put me back on track with self discovery and possibility. It was a seminar of 1500 woman from 28 different States. My week prior had been unusual, exhausting, and stressful. The morning of the first day … More I Am Becoming Wonder Woman
When JJ and I discuss marriage I told him I was broken and had a lot of baggage from my first marriage. I told him EVERYTHING. He said he would be fine working through it with me. I hoped he was right, but for the longest time I was still waiting for the other shoe … More Learning Through the Baggage
Trigger Warning: This post is all about triggers. Triggers are different for everyone. You never know when they are going to show up. I am sharing in hopes of helping others. An Emotional Trigger is a response to a person, situation, event, that provokes a strong emotional reaction. For some people, an upsetting or stressful life event, such as … More Let’s Talk About Triggers
It starts with a little disappointment followed by self doubt. Then something else goes wrong and once again I feel the sadness overwhelm me and the darkness creep in. As I finish the work tasks for the day I am exhausted. I forget to do my nightly self care which for me includes doTerra essential … More Working through the darkness quicker
I AM that I AM. I am what I think and believe. That which we affirm becomes our reality. When we change our thoughts we change our reality. If our affirmations are: I am fat, I am unworthy, I am stupid, I am unwanted, I am useless, I am………. our mind believes us. This is … More I AM that I AM
Anxiety, Depression, and our own internal dialog often paint the way we see ourselves. We compare our worst against others best. We define ourselves by our perspective of celebrities, airbrushed models, and the lives we see on social media. I am grateful for the following perspective: Life is about learning and growth. We learn … More I AM ENOUGH Because I AM LIVE!
I am discovering that the root of most of my feelings of sadness and fear come from not loving my self. I grew up hating my body, hating my mind, and feeling less than everyone around me. I was bigger then my older sister and bullied because of my size, so I believed there must … More Loving Self
Written by Kimi Bayles Anxiety is a beast! It can be a silent and awful thing to live with! On the outside I look strong and confident, on the inside I’m a complete mess! I constantly feel like I’m letting everyone down. That I’m just not good enough. The anxiety I live with is hard, … More Anxiety is a beast!
As I was working out yesterday, I was disappointed at my results. My recovery from my knee surgeries has taken it’s toll on my body. My strength and endurance are not where I was hoping to be at this point. As I stated the number of pushups JJ said, “Do it without putting yourself down.” … More I AM ENOUGH! NEW YEAR – NEW POSSIBILITIES
I love November and focusing on what I am grateful for. I never thought I would say this since being grateful when in an anxious or depress state is not always easy. I am grateful for my trails. As I have overcome my trails I have gained strength, healing, knowledge, and gratitude. I am grateful … More Beyond Grateful!
October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month and it has been 3 years since I wrote my first blog for Beyond Abuse Essential Healing “Opening a Dialog About Abuse“. I have learned a lot about myself as I have opened up about my life. I am continually growing and discovering. The last several months have been difficult … More Everything that kills me makes me feel alive!
Trigger Warning: Triggers are different for everyone. You never know when they are going to show up. I am sharing in hopes of helping others. I show people I love and care about them by serving them. I love sharing my talent of cooking and baking to serve others as well as share my time … More Fear, Failure, and the Future