Having experienced verbal, sexual, emotional, and physical abuse, I often get lost in a pattern of negative thoughts and despair. One thing leads to another and I forget that I get to choose. I can’t cope with life. I start having nightmares about my X. I go into survival mode and everything seems hard. Sometimes my thoughts spiral out of control and I go deeper and deeper in to despair. My depression and anxiety seem to be overpowering.
I often find myself angry that I cannot do some of the things I have learned. I was reminded that I am doing the best I know how at that moment. If I could do it differently I would. Healing is continual cycle.
Discovery > Release > Create > Discovery >
This cycle is not easy and at times we will meet resistance and pain. We can even be triggered as we move through the cycle that may cause us to stop practicing and moving through the cycle. Prayer, meditation, essential oils, and therapy assist us through the process. I have discovered that healing is a daily practice, not a destination. We need to love ourselves and be patient with the process.
2006 I was introduced to The Secret a film and a book presented by Rhonda Byrne. The Secret shares amazing real life stories of regular people who have changed their lives in profound ways by applying “The Secret” or the laws of the Universe. The secret or law is that whatever we focus on is what shows up in our life. In other words our thoughts become our reality. Mike Dooley said, “Thought’s become things, choose them wisely.”
As I rise out of the darkness. I am returning to those things I have learned along the way. I am choosing my thoughts and words carefully. I asking myself the following questions without figuring them out:
- Who Am I?
- What do I want to create?
- What do I enjoy doing?
- What Am I choosing by my thoughts and actions?
The thoughts from these questions will create my reality. They will change the way I see my life and the world. I get to choose these thoughts each and everyday. Each day that I choose to pray, meditate, use essential oils, and work with my therapist, I am putting into practice those things that will bring me healing.
We will never complete the healing cycle Discovery > Release > Create > Discovery>, we will just get better at moving through the phases more quickly. Our creations will become more vivid and precise.
Take time for self care, be patient as you fine tune the practice, love yourself and enjoy the journey. Choose your thoughts carefully and hold on to the ones that bring you joy and serve your higher purpose.
I declare I am the possibility of love, light, clarity, and joy. I am abundant, grateful, powerful and healed. I choose to play big, create a life I love, and I hold the space for others to do the same.
Everyone has his or her own journey. We each have our own triggers and interpretations of life. My intent is to add in the healing process not cause anxiety or pain. Our experience may be similar but they are each unique. Even though many people could have been at the same event each person experiences and remembers those events through our own eyes and will recall the event differently. My blogs will be from my perspective of my life. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother and friend. I am not a Doctor, Counselor or Therapist. I believe it is important to work with Doctors, Counselors and Therapist along with Essential Oils, Energy Healing and spirituality to find health, healing and balance.