Warning: Post contains images of a model depicting injuries caused by physical assault. They triggered anxiety for me, but I feel it is important to share.
What do you picture when you think about abuse?
For me I picture my X dragging me into our bedroom and raping me. Him yelling and degrading me in front of other people. Being push up against a wall and having things thrown at me.
Recently a friend sent me a a public service announcement video that was posted on Upworthy. The video is a depiction of a women’s daily photo journal. The sign at the end translates to, “Help me, I don’t know if I will make it until tomorrow.” Many woman feel this way. They want to get out but don’t know how.
As I watched the video I was filled with the same anxiety I felt in my first marriage. My X never left marks where anyone would see, but they where still there. I lived in fear. I was afraid of it getting worse. He would also tell me if anyone found out he would kill me. Regardless of the type of abuse people experience it is hard to know where to turn or how to get out when you are in the middle of it. I didn’t know how or where to get help, luckily I had great friends and co-workers who saw the signs and helped me.
It is my mission to provide the resources I have learned about since getting out. I want to share the signs of abuse with the world. It is import to understand not everyone experiences all of the types of abuse and that there is not just one picture of what abuse looks like. There may be some who never show outward signs of abuse, that are slowing dying instead from emotional abuse. If you know someone who is being abused. Please approach the subject carefully. Offer support and help with judgement.
As with each post I want to acknowledge our experience may be similar but they are each unique. Even though many people could have been at the same event each person experiences and remembers those events through our own eyes and will recall the event differently. My blogs will be from my perspective of my life I am a daughter, sister, wife, mother and friend. I am not a Doctor, Counselor or Therapist. I believe it is important to work with Doctors, Counselors and Therapist along with Essential Oils, Energy Healing and spirituality to find health, healing and balance.